like the one between me and the sea.
âIâd like to hear your story,â Finch said from the backseat after we turned down a two-lane road that lazily wound around an orchard-covered hill. A few frozen apples still swung from the bare branches and I was tempted to reach out the window and try to grab one. âI havenât talked to other people in a long time and I like listening to your voice.â
I took off my seat belt and turned to face him. âI was just about to ask you to do the same thing.â
âYou first,â he said back, half smiling at me in that strange, contrasting way he had, gentle and wild all at once, like a caged wolf only half resigned to his fate. I guess thatâs what came from growing up all alone in the forest. He had a dimple on his left cheek, a deep one. I decided right then that dimples were inherently likeable.
I told Finch about me, and Luke, and Sunshine, and Neely and Freddie and Citizen Kane and what happened last summer and how we ended up in Innâs End. I wasnât used to talking so much at once, and it didnât come easily to me, but I got better as I went along. Finch was quiet, his expression mild, and I would have thought he didnât believe me at all, believe my tale of glow and spark and blood and fire, except his eyes never left mine.
We went by bare, brown vineyards, their grapes stolen for wine. We went by farms, red barns and dark fences and endless trees. I told Finch about River. And about Brodie. I talked about the red hair and the knife and the cowboy and the mad mother and him cutting up Jack and him biting River and how it ended when I stabbed him in the chest as I bled to death out my wrists.
I showed him the scars and he touched each with his right finger, softly. âIâm sorry about this,â he said, leaving his finger on my left wrist and looking me straight in the eye. âI wish I had been there. I wish I could have saved you the way you saved me in Innâs End.â
I shook my head. âYou couldnât have stopped Brodie.â
âAnd yet youâre hunting him.â Finchâs expression still had that caged look. âWhat do you plan to do if you find him?â
I could feel Neely look at me. I moved my wrist away from Finchâs hand. âIf we find Brodie, then . . . then Iâll . . . Iâll stab him again. With a knife this time, not a shard of glass. And this time Iâll kill him.â
Finchâs eyebrows went up. Just slightly. But I saw it. He doubted me.
Of course he doubted me.
River, what am I going to do if we find Brodie in North Carolina instead of you?
âIâd like to see this Citizen Kane someday,â Finch said after I was quiet for a while. âIâd like to have coffee in the guesthouse and dig up old clothes in the attic.â
âYou can,â I said, trying not to sound too excited. I canât help getting excited when anyone seems interested in the Citizen. âOnce we finish up in North Carolina, you can come back with Neely and me and see it all for yourself and stay as long as you like.â
Finch nodded, and his mouth broke into a sweet, genuine smile. He reached forward and grabbed my hands, putting his fingertips on my wrists again. âSo which one are we going to find in North Carolina?â he asked, after a moment. âRiver, or Brodie?â
âI donât know.â Outside, the landscape had flattened, and lost some of its trees. âProbably neither.â
Neely looked at me again, quick, and then turned back to the road. âRiver loves the Outer Banks,â he called behind him to Finch. âIt was the first place he ran away to back when he was fifteen.â
âBut a sea god sounds more like Brodie.â I paused, and slipped my hands out of Finchâs grasp. âEither way, if a Redding boy is there, weâll find him.â
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