Road To Whatever (Perfect For Me Book 1) by Blue Saffire Page A

her too. Some best friend he is and some new friend I have become. He just ignores her for two months and I have been doing the same thing for a month. I just want to hug her and make her smile again.
    I came close many times until I remember the guys. Then I become a total dick, but I do it for the band, for my brothers. I won’t ruin the band because I have this crazy obsession.
    So here I sit on my fourth beer stewing because I want something so bad and I can’t have it. I almost lost my shit on my own brother tonight when I saw his hands on her. I know they have told me a ton of times that they are just friends and I see all the tail Crush bags but I still can’t see straight when it comes to Kitty.
    “Hey Nolan,” Mitch calls me out of my thoughts and nudges me. Ut-oh this is big if Mitch is calling me by my real name again. He was the one that started the nickname Rage. He always had my back in high school when I would lose it and end up in a blind rage.
    “Hey man, what now? Don’t tell me Kitty is going to be another hour,” I grumble and take a pull from my beer.
    “No,” Mitch chuckles, “but she is what I need to talk to you about.”
    “Yeah, what about her?”
    “Me and the guys were talking… she is really unhappy Nolan,” Mitch starts hesitantly.
    “I bet she is. She’s still waiting for that douche to call her back,” I rumble.
    “Dude, if you really think that is the only reason she is so unhappy right now you are further gone than I thought.”
    “What is that supposed to mean,” I turn on my stool to face him this time.
    “It means Nolan, we all know you have a thing for Kitty and you are going to drive us all crazy until you get her. The guys talked and she seems to like you too so we think maybe it would be better if you guys did hook up. I mean it can’t be worse than the crap you guys are putting each other through already.”
    “Well I am so glad we have your blessing,” I bite out.
    “Come on Rage you know what I mean. Talk to her see how things go and we can all relax for the next two months.”
    “Yeah, I got you man. Thanks.” I can feel my jaw working as Mitch’s words really sink in.
    I don’t want to make Kitty unhappy, if anything I want to make her happy again. Make her forget about that douche and put that pretty smile back on her face. I want her to smile at me the way I see her smile at Crush when no one else is paying attention to them. She doesn’t even notice the way she smiles at him. I want that so bad it hurts.
    “Hey Guys,” Kitty chimes just as my mind starts to fill with her. “Sorry I took so long. Storm is loading my bike now.” The guys raise their beers to her and nod.
    “You’re good babe,” Crushed smiles. “Want a beer?”
    “Sure,” she smiles back sending that pain through my chest once again.
    I hop off my stool and place a hand on her waist turning her to me. I lean down to push my forehead to hers just like I saw her with Crush wishing it was me. Kitty takes in a sharp breath in surprise. I step closer to her and pull her to me.
    “Kitty,” I say and lick my lips.
    “Yes,” she breathes.
    “Do you want Chris?” it was the only thing I could think of. I need to know. Before I make her mine I have to know.
    “No, he’s just my friend,” she answers exasperated and pushes out of my hold as if clearing her head. “Not that it is any of your business. Maybe you should slow down, get your head in the game, Rage.” She bites out, throwing my words from the first night I met her back in my face.
    I feel the sting in my chest. This is not going to be as simple as just talking to her. I can see in her face she has thrown up a wall when it comes to me. I am going to have to earn my girl’s trust again. Two months is more than enough to do so , I think to myself. You’ll have her on the bus all to yourself in no time .
    I smile to myself. Mitch is right anything has to be better than the way things have been between the two of