roller-coaster, there would be questions, officials, forms to fill out, time wasted. I said, âNo, really.â
Gourad knew I was lying, but he let it go.
Outside, the city sped by in a wet blur. My hands shook when I lit a cigarette. âYou said Lily was raped.â The words came out flat, harsh.
âIt looks that way. Iâm sorry. You want the details?â
âNo.â Donât think about it, I said to myself. Just keep moving.
âWhat?â
I was talking to myself out loud. Momo looked at me sympathetically.
âNothing,â I said.
âTake it easy.â
âYour guys are nowhere on Lilyâs case, isnât that right?
Gourad, angry, said, âYou got it.â
âWhere we going?â
âMy shift, like I said.â
If I stayed with Gourad, he might open up. He wanted to talk. He was angry with the brass and I knew how that was, so Iâd keep with him. âYou from Paris, Momo?â
âSure.â
âParents?â
âWhatâs the difference?â
âHey, Iâm just making polite conversation. No one gives a shit where your parents came from.â
âYou think that?â he said. âYouâre from New York where no one gives a shit. It matters in France. Youâre not French unless youâve been here five hundred years. Iâm part Moroccan. My fatherâs parents came over when he was a kid.â
I kept my mouth shut.
âI wish to God I could spend all my time on Lilyâs case, but we waste our time on small shit. Last night we had to shake down some West African guys for swipingfake Vuitton handbags, then we picked up some Algerians for selling an ounce of hash. I could be working on the fucks who beat up Lily, who killed that little girl and stuffed her body behind the billboard. But we have to make Paris nice.â
Gouradâs fury spurted up out of him, it made him tick, it made him ambitious.
I said, âYou got kids?â
âSure. Nice wife, two nice kids, nice house in the suburbs. Youâd like Monique. Youâll come for dinner, sheâll make her cheese soufflé. You like a cheese soufflé, Artie?â
âSure. Thanks.â
âOne more thing.â
âWhatâs that?â
âYou carrying, Artie? You have a weapon? Itâs not allowed in France. This is not the Wild West, OK? Weâre not in Texas.â
I didnât answer. I didnât have a gun, not yet.
âMomo?â
âWhat?â
âLilyâs hair. When you found her, how was her hair?â
âShort,â he said. âHer hair was short.â
âThere was hair at the scene? Her hair?â He didnât answer.
âTell me.â
âYes. I donât know why. I donât know what the fuck this means, but something happened to her hair. We found chunks of her hair where they beat her up, like someone hacked it off.â
*
Momo Gourad drove like a crazy man. He drove me around the parts of Paris he worked on his shift and kept up a stream of chatter. He was up-front about his own boss and the way, like most cops, he hated the system. He was also holding back, feeling me out, wary. He had some kind of personal investment in the case that I didnât understand. He had the gray binder with Lilyâs case file in his desk drawer and I wanted it bad enough to sit alongside him in the car and listen to him however long it took.
âIt wonât help, calling again,â Gourad said as I started dialing the hospital for the third time. âGive it a break. Please.â
I called anyway. There was no news.
Snow kept falling as Gourad drove. Everywhere, I clocked the streets, memorizing what I could, figuring out the city. Rue Saint-Denis where there were sex shops and peep shows and clubs marked cuirs, like they were selling leather goods. â Salons de Lingeriesâ, âShow Lesbiennesâ. There were fast-food joints, fake English
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